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RENNARD: ...whew, where do i even start with this
RENNARD: i guess way back when my boyfriend and my best friend first discovered their own weird psychic dreamworld stuff
RENNARD: i know theyre both pretty secretive about all that but im sure you already suspected this was the case anyway
ZARIYAH: yeah, kinda. i totally get why they wouldn't want to tell me anything, though, in hindsight.
RENNARD: well i mean, they didnt really like talking about it to anyone really. from what i gathered i was the only one actually in the know
RENNARD: but now that im out here exploring and meeting you and seeing several of the others here, i think its all more interconnected in our friend group than i thought, and i havent heard much about that place in a long time anyway, so fuck it
RENNARD: back in the early days of this it sounded so cool. i wanted to be there with them so badly. it would have been such a nice way to see ver more often too, with yskelia's bullshittingly meticulous emmigration systems
ZARIYAH: i still don't get how that system's even supposed to work.
RENNARD: it literally doesnt in his case. it pisses me off
RENNARD: anyway you can guess how my wishes went. when i tried to join them i wound up in this nightmare hellscape where nothing lined up, just a fucked up and twisted approximation of what ive heard about their dreamscape
RENNARD: i always just figured i did something wrong. some stupid mistake i made in my subconscious that put me in the wrong place forever that i couldnt fix
ZARIYAH: hey, if it helps, i'm pretty sure it's more of a predestination thing at this point.
RENNARD: well yeah i know that now, but ive already spent so long building these emotional connotations and dwelling on them its hard to shake that feeling
ZARIYAH: ffffair.
RENNARD: ...but yeah, then uh. something happened there, eventually. in the other dreamworld.
RENNARD: whatever it was, neither of them ever want to talk about it, ver never brings up his dreams again, and alethea's always really vague on the rare cases she has anything she needs to say about dreams
RENNARD: it fucks me up trying to fill in the blanks, you know. all i can gather is that ver lost his ability to dream there at all im pretty sure and it just...
RENNARD: well, you know how he is now.
ZARIYAH: ...oh.
RENNARD: SO. yeah. that happened. and im still here. in the wrong fucked up place. maybe id have been able to do SOMETHING to help him if i managed to do the goddamn psychic dream thing right, yknow? and after whatever happened there i didnt even want to fix my dreams anymore, because whats the fucking point. but i still show up here EVERY time i sleep and it ALWAYS reminds me of my STUPID fuckup and how i couldnt help and STILL cant fucking help him and i just-
RENNARD: and then i wake you up- and you just-
RENNARD: ...sigh.
RENNARD: i guess way back when my boyfriend and my best friend first discovered their own weird psychic dreamworld stuff
RENNARD: i know theyre both pretty secretive about all that but im sure you already suspected this was the case anyway
ZARIYAH: yeah, kinda. i totally get why they wouldn't want to tell me anything, though, in hindsight.
RENNARD: well i mean, they didnt really like talking about it to anyone really. from what i gathered i was the only one actually in the know
RENNARD: but now that im out here exploring and meeting you and seeing several of the others here, i think its all more interconnected in our friend group than i thought, and i havent heard much about that place in a long time anyway, so fuck it
RENNARD: back in the early days of this it sounded so cool. i wanted to be there with them so badly. it would have been such a nice way to see ver more often too, with yskelia's bullshittingly meticulous emmigration systems
ZARIYAH: i still don't get how that system's even supposed to work.
RENNARD: it literally doesnt in his case. it pisses me off
RENNARD: anyway you can guess how my wishes went. when i tried to join them i wound up in this nightmare hellscape where nothing lined up, just a fucked up and twisted approximation of what ive heard about their dreamscape
RENNARD: i always just figured i did something wrong. some stupid mistake i made in my subconscious that put me in the wrong place forever that i couldnt fix
ZARIYAH: hey, if it helps, i'm pretty sure it's more of a predestination thing at this point.
RENNARD: well yeah i know that now, but ive already spent so long building these emotional connotations and dwelling on them its hard to shake that feeling
ZARIYAH: ffffair.
RENNARD: ...but yeah, then uh. something happened there, eventually. in the other dreamworld.
RENNARD: whatever it was, neither of them ever want to talk about it, ver never brings up his dreams again, and alethea's always really vague on the rare cases she has anything she needs to say about dreams
RENNARD: it fucks me up trying to fill in the blanks, you know. all i can gather is that ver lost his ability to dream there at all im pretty sure and it just...
RENNARD: well, you know how he is now.
ZARIYAH: ...oh.
RENNARD: SO. yeah. that happened. and im still here. in the wrong fucked up place. maybe id have been able to do SOMETHING to help him if i managed to do the goddamn psychic dream thing right, yknow? and after whatever happened there i didnt even want to fix my dreams anymore, because whats the fucking point. but i still show up here EVERY time i sleep and it ALWAYS reminds me of my STUPID fuckup and how i couldnt help and STILL cant fucking help him and i just-
RENNARD: and then i wake you up- and you just-
RENNARD: ...sigh.
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